ALONE

Hidden from the face of humanity In the dark abyss I learnt to live in The ugly red apocalyptic sky-real With rain red as blood falling in this domain Emptiness in here,soo desolate Lonely city 🌆 🏙️ I don't know either fake or real But I feel it People who manage to see me They don't see the real It all lies 🤥 I'm losing my goddamn mind They ask if I'm alright I tell'em I'm fine But deep down what's my reply It's chaos down here in my mind Nothing here to find not even a heart Emptiness placed instead of my heart I don't know anymore,I sigh 😔 I really don't want to be alive But the emptiness doesn't just die I hide inside my silence, where nobody knocks, where nobody asks. My room knows my secrets. I made it into a dark fortress The walls have heard my thoughts I sit in the corner, watching the world move through a window I never seem to open. Outside,people laugh,cars pass, the sky changes. And somehow I remain the same. Secluded. So I sit in my corner,laugh cry being tired Not because there is nowhere to go, but because I can't tell The right from wrong The real from fake Deranged capacity I've built a home A cage out of distance, locked the doors with things I never said, and thrown away the key. But I never knew this emotions are phantom They came, became comfortable and became The house owner Sometimes I wonder if anyone notices that I've disappeared without actually leaving. They see my face.They hear my voice.They think I'm here. I smile and laugh with them That has never been the real me But somewhere deep inside,I'm standing alone in a room with no doors,listening to my own heartbeat echo against the walls, wondering how long a person can live feeling absent from their own life. A living ghost 👻 Whenever they see what I write they say I'm dark But it's just what I feel inside 💠 I'm down 👇 👎 but I look up to this vast dark 🌑 empty sky Locked out of the world they call real It all ends in EMPTINESS I really pity myself sometimes And maybe tomorrow I'll open the window. Maybe I'll let the light in. But tonight, I'll sit here quietly,secluded from the world, and let the silence say everything I cannot.😔 > Eemotionz