OCEAN OF EMOTIONS

I don’t know how to tell you that I’m sad ‎That I'm breaking and I'm mad ‎I don't know how to tell you I'm struggling ‎That I'm hurting and that I can't ‎I don't know how to tell you I'm in pain ‎That I'm scared and that my heart aches ‎I've never been the type to share these feelings ‎I consider them my weaknesses ‎And sharing my weakness wouldn't help anyone ‎I can only help you build faith ‎Whilst my reality breaks me ‎I can only help you believe in your dreams ‎Whilst my dreams hide in the dark ‎I can only tell you to trust the timing ‎Whilst I panic that my time has passed ‎I can only tell you that God will show you the way ‎Whilst I'm scared that I've pushed HIM away ‎And even as I drown in my ocean of emotions ‎I keep my waters from entering your ship ‎I'm under deep waters but my faith is my strength ‎If I let my waters into your ship you might drown ‎So I'm this girl ‎In a ruined ship ‎And as the ocean threatens to sink my ship ‎I have a bowl ‎With it I fetch out the water from my ship quickly ‎And I pour it back into the ocean ‎I'm weary and it's hopeless ‎Feeding what's sinking me because that’s the only way I don't sink instantly ‎This faith, this fire burning in my heart ‎Pushing me to keep going ‎And as I feel I can't any longer, I'm filled with new strength ‎Praying that I'll be provided with the right resources to save myself from drowning or maybe with hands folded ‎Someone who will save me from this ship and put me on a new one because this ship seems broken beyond repair and the waves keep getting worse ‎In the midst of all this I'm still able to find my faith ‎The source of my constant strength supply ‎And I believe that along with this ship being repaired or a new ship entirely, I'll sail on calm waters one day. ‎